Sometimes srsly I don't know what I want. I'm not easily contented, I'm not naise even sometimes I feel as if I'm a bitch and that I'm not honest to myself sigh. This is what happens when I'm alone at home :( Mum left me to friend's house but I was happy she managed to have fun somewhere. But in whatever I do, I've only got the interest for it for 3 minutes but if it exceeds, I'll be stubborn and hang on to it.

Is there, someone I can call to now and be extremely honest?

but then again, I don't want anyone else to know the real me wtheck am i talkin abt I feel so crap. It's this barrier that no matter how sociable I am I don't want anyone to know me my own reservations. I feel so unreal

and it suck balls because it's Christmas. It's suppose to be a joyous occasion and I'm spoiling it.

I hope work tmw can take away whatever unhappiness I'm having now.

Maybe after 5 minutes these emo thoughts would go away, maybe